Count your own blessings

I used to pride myself in the fact that I’m never that person that gets jealous over someone’s good fortune. If anything I’m usually quick to rejoice and celebrate with whomever it is that is celebrating.

So there’s this friend of mine and it happened to be that we were both believing God for the same thing. The thing ended up happening for her and it didn’t happen for me and all of a sudden I started questioning my standing with God.

As a matter of fact, I suddenly realised I’ve always tried to outdo her, comparing myself with her and I started beating myself up whenever I felt I was not as good.

So I prayed. I told God how I didn’t like the way I was feeling and if I keep going this way I will start resenting this dear friend of mine. Well you know what God told me?

He said I had started losing sight of who I was and who He is making me to be. I had stopped counting my blessings and had started counting other people’s blessings.

And I thought to myself that’s it, I’m distracting myself from counting my own blessings and it has helped me so far deal with the issue of jealousy.

You may think there’s really no ‘’blessing’’ in your life to count and It may be due to what you define to be a blessing. You know the cliché statement that it’s a blessing to be alive  well it is very true.

I didn’t appreciate being able to hear properly until I had an ear infection that had me partially deaf for a while. When I finally got better I appreciated being able to hear properly and acknowledged it as a blessing.

You’re alive for a reason, and don’t take it for granted. Remember where there’s life, there’s hope and the bible tells us that hope (on the love of God) makes us not ashamed (Romans 5:5). So let’s start counting our blessings and start trusting in his love for each and every one of us.

Love and Blessings…

Doubting Thomas

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For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God not by works, so that no one can boast (Ephesians 2:8-9)

So there was this guy called Thomas, he was one of the followers of Jesus who has been widely talked about and criticised in many bible study discussions because of his lack of faith and him not trusting the fact that Jesus had died and rose again until he could prove it physically (John 20:24-29).

At some point, his story got me thinking and I began to tell God, that I didn’t see anything wrong in what Thomas did and as a matter of fact, if I’m being honest, I would do the exact same thing, because I mean you can’t tell me that someone I saw killed with my eyes is alive after three days without concrete proof.

Nevertheless, what got to me was the fact that when Jesus came to the disciples again and didn’t tell Thomas off or criticized him but instead He allowed him to see for himself that it was true after which he added that blessed are those who believe without seeing. The point is Jesus came down to Thomas’ level to reveal himself to him in order for Thomas to believe after which He told him the way forward with God (Believing without seeing).

I believe that’s how God gets through to us, when we are very open and honest with him acknowledging we are weak. Thomas didn’t pretend to have the faith the other disciples exhibited and so should we when in a similar situation. Sometimes when I’m trying to believe God for something and I am in so much doubt I tell him God I’m finding it hard to believe you will do this but I want to, so please help my unbelief. After all it’s by his Grace we believe in HIM; so let’s not fake it but instead be real with him because God’s strength is made perfect in our weaknesses (2 Corinthians 12:9) and with his help we will grow into his perfect will for us.

Am I beautiful?

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You will keep in perfect peace, Whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts You (Isaiah 26:3)

One question I was guilty of asking a lot especially back then in secondary school. In my first senior year some of the boys in my class were not the nicest of people and said things that made me feel insecure. At some point I had lots of pimples on my face and in a bid to make them go away, I used a face thing that ended up burning parts of my face. Well u can imagine how that turned out lol. Insecurity does not even do justice to how I felt then.

Moving on to first year uni now, getting to know God and all, I realised I still was not confident about answering the question positively. So I guess God decided it was time to deal with it and I finally opened up to someone about how I truly felt and bless this lady because she encouraged me Alot. Few days later my Pastor who was not aware of what was going on, told me to go learn the song “Designer’s original” to sing at church. The words of the song started my healing experience….

Long story short, I didn’t get healing until I opened my heart to ONLY what God had to say about me [Fearfully and wonderfully made!]. You see alot of us give more attention to what other people have to say about us than what God has said to and about us. God is the maker of us all and it is only the manufacturer that knows his product inside out. I had to give in to accepting only God’s word continuously. The bible tells us to guard our hearts with all diligence for out of it flows the issues of life (Proverbs 4:23) meaning you have the power to allow your heart receive or reject. By God’s grace I chose to accept ONLY His opinion about me and not even my opinion  about me (then) because it wasn’t in line with his word.

It took a year and some months (after I sang that song) for me to step out of my room without makeup and feel good about myself but it happened eventually. Remember his Grace is sufficient just ask him to help you believe only His word about you and He ALWAYS comes through…